It's been a long time

I've decided to try this again, since God has been working in my life so much lately. I'm learning what it means to be a true disciple, to give up my fleshly desires to seek the Kingdom of God.
Sometimes God gives opportunities to start fresh. Not by seeking them out, because maybe that would mean running. I felt His whisper in my heart to start back at my roots, as He so often does with His children.
In Revelation 2:4-5, God speaks to the church of Ephesus and rebukes them for leaving their first love:
Jesus.
This means that since their salvation, they have neglected and forgotten the things of God, and naturally, God wants them (and us) to repent, and remember those wonderful works He's done. To remember the joy we felt at salvation, to remember the relief we felt after He provided a need. To remember our love for Him.

Since being married and becoming part of Lakeside Baptist church, God has used circumstances, people, and His word, to convict and change my heart.

I'm immensely grateful for my Husband. He's patient with my shortcomings, knowing that even being aware of things I'm trying to fix, I cannot change overnight. The process to Christlikeness is lifelong, but to God, it is only a wink in time. My beloved Husband, to me, has very little flaws; he's loving, he spoils me, he has a strong sense of right and wrong, and his heart for God melts mine, and adds to my desire to know God. Although marriage is not for everyone, I'm grateful God is using it to remold me. I've since discovered how strongly I followed after my flesh, ignoring the things of God ignorantly. I've learned what it looks like and feels like to die to self, to put my desires aside to please God as a wife, and to please my husband in maintaining our home (because he's VERY clean, and I'm a disorganized tornado ;).
I'm also grateful for my church. A church that is doctrinally sound (in teachings), that follows the Bible no matter the consequences,  helps correct and guide and serve each other because God loved us first, and so we love one another. Not the selfish love that seeks to please itself, no. The kind of love that will give up half a paycheck to pay for your friend's college tuition. The kind of love that will be up in the middle of the night with a friend going through marital problems. The kind of love that will give anything for the benefit of what we call "church family" because God has made us new, and that means giving it all we've got.